Amber - Beautiful

I was blown away with this song the first time I heard it. I think I was having a headache that day, I heard this song and BAM! Headache gone. I think I replayed it a good ten times. It really is surprising how so many rappers actually sing really, really well. Amber sure surprised her. I wish I could see this side of her more often. I wish I could see her be more girly sometimes, but that would take away her uniqueness, wouldn't it?
Writing lyrics to this song was easy for me. The song has a meaning that I resonated with. It is about falling down and getting up. Having your wings betray you and then trying to fly. Totally loved this song.
Anyway here is the information for those of you who wish to sing this song and don't know Korean:

Instrumental by Shekespearinator - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljwALbkd3z8

Lyrics by Es.el. -

The night is dark and I
must hold my head down because
this endless night holds, my frail soul captive
yeah
I couldn't spread wings enough, I just had them go
it's a sad tale
this world is like a small cage, but i can still sing for my fallen wings

so that my dream can
shine bright
in the clear blue sky
and then may be, my heart will beat
My frozen dream will, be alive, I'll wait for that day
my wings will come alive,
high up in the sky.

I've realized it now, that pain is inevitable
that every wound will heal, leaving the pain far

so that my dream can
shine bright
in the clear blue sky
and then may be, my heart will beat
My frozen dream will be alive, I'll wait for that day
my wings will come alive,
high up in the sky.

Those sharp words cut my heart deeply,
I clench my teeth
and I fight through it Even though its gonna burn
I know I’m going to heal, and I’m always looking up
Even though it’s dark I’m gonna find the light
I’m going to smile
I’ll keep smiling
I”m a fighter
I never give up
I keep on flying
Fly
Fly again
My dreams come back from the far far future
I'ma just be me
Yeah only me
I'ma just be me yeah yeah


Now I can fly high, with no fear,
witness to my scars
and inspite of
the darkness
I lifted my wings to the light
now i'll just say this

I’m just happy
I’m happy to be myself
I’m happy to be myself

India's Daughter - The BBC Documentary - Shocks

The documentary is off air now. The story that was crying to be heard is now not available. Honestly, I don't understand what prompted our government to take it off. This is assuming our government regards the upliftment of our society as an important topic.

Luckily I watched it. And let me tell you, a few things said in the documentary shocked me. Even though my tolerance for shock is quite high.

The first shocking thing - the rapist being interviewed seemed sensible! Now before you bash me over saying this, hear me out. He said some pretty sad things like, "The girl is responsible", girls shouldn't do this and that, and the girl should not have fought back. The saddest thing he said was that hanging us will put girls at even more of a danger.
But whatever he said, he said it in a honest, unbiased way. He was not arrogant, nor sorry. In his mind, he was 100% right. Everything he said was a reflection of his up bringing and past circumstances. He was taught, rather he saw, growing up that girls shouldn't be doing some things. He formed his beliefs. And he won't feel sorry for what he did until those beliefs change.

The next shock - the defense lawyers. I never imagined that people from even an educated society could have the same mentality as the rapists! Seriously, the things they were saying were so absurd that they bordered hilarious. Here is what one of them said, "A girl is like a flower. Put the flower in a gutter and it will go bad. Put it in a temple and it will be worshiped." I have no idea what point was supposed to be made with this analogy. But the height of ridiculousness was when another lawyer claimed that he would burn his daughter if she did certain 'wrong' things. Forget everything for a moment, how the hell can a parent make such a statement.

Shock #3 - One of the rapist's wife's reaction was heart breaking. She is so utterly devoted to her husband. She does not believe this incident. She goes ahead to say that she and her son have no reason to live if her husband dies. Coming from roots wherein I was always encouraged to have a life of my own, it was very difficult for me to see this. There are women who believe their sole purpose/duty is to do what their husbands want.

Shock #4 - The comments section of video. People can find fault in every freaking thing there is. Not to mention the anti - India or anti - BBC talk going on. Why, oh why can't people focus on the main issue here -
WE NEED CHANGE. WE NEED EDUCATION AND AWARENESS IN OUR SOCIETY TO CHANGE EXISTING MENTALITIES.

PS. Does the juvenile offender have no name? Why was he being referred to as 'juvenile' by everyone? Is it not legal or something?

The Wheel Of Life

So today I came across this very interesting thing while surfing the internet. It is 'The Wheel Of Life'. I found out about it through my favorite, Tony Robbins. While researching it, I also found that this a very popular tool used by many. I think Tony has just re-invented the classic. I love Tony Robbins, he is just one of those people you can keep listening to.
Well, he says that for our lives to be happy, we need to have the components of the wheel taken care off in the order that he describes it. It is more like a pyramid to me. I don't know why he is popularizing it as a wheel. Haha.
So here are the components with the most important coming first.
1.Physical body
2.Emotions and meaning
3.Relationships
4.Time management
5.Career
6.Finances
7.Contribution/celebration

Now you can go into the details of each these by checking out Tony on this website -
https://humanelevation.tonyrobbins.com/wheel-of-life/welcome

I would definitely urge everyone to go and check this out. It might revolutionize your life, if not enhance it a little.
Recently, I began journaling. And I realized that everything I wrote about could be classified into these components of the wheel. This was interesting to me because then, if you want a check on your life, all you have to do is go through each of these components. And bang! you have your life in order. I even created a super to-go mnemonic for this - BERT CFC.

Just writing this makes me realize what a organize freak I am. But hey, it's a good trait to have I'd say.

Reptilian Brain - right or wrong

In my pursue to grow to new levels I have encountered a very interesting 'controversy', if I may call it that.
This involves two people who are influencing thousands of people everyday. They are - Leo Gura and Elliot Hulse. In case you didn't know, they are both popular YouTubers. They are both involved in personal development.
I have come to love and believe both them. However, I found that regarding one theory, they both have drastically different opinions. Now this, confuses me because both their theories make sense. Let's go into the details.

Leo says that your reptilian brain is focused on survival. So if we continually feel threatened and concentrate on surviving, our prefrontal cortex/human brain cannot act sufficiently. There is no room for ideas, creativity if we just focus on surviving. And so it is essential to keep our reptilian brain mellowed down.

Elliot says that we use our neo cortex too much. Our modern day society demands use to continually use our 'brain' too much. We don't act instinctively anymore. Everything is reasoned and logical. This causes us become kind of like robots. No spontaneity, no motion, no physical activity. That is the way things are with most of us. So he says that it is important shut our higher brain sometimes, to let our brainstem/ reptilian brain act.

So what the hell am I supposed to do. Listening my reptilian brain leads to negative thoughts but not listening to it leads to robot-ness.

Actually, while writing this I think I've kind of figured who to believe on this topic. I think Leo has got it wrong. I don't think negative thoughts originate from our reptilian brain. I think they originate from our neo cortex. I think they come due to 'over-thinking'.
I would really love to hear your opinions regarding this.

Blue Memories

Don't be fooled by title. I'm talking about 'Blue' memories. 'Blue' - the English band. And I have the most fond Blue memories. It would not be an exaggeration to say that it was their music that truly got me into music.
I remember my friends saying, "You have to check these songs out! Here, we'll sing some for you." And they sung 'All Rise'. It did not sound good at all. Lol. They weren't 'singers'. But I did listen to the track. And man, was I hooked. Not only was it great music. It was four hot guys singing great music. I swore 'Blue' would be my favorite band forever and ever and ever.
One listen to 'One Love' now, and I'm transported back to my childhood. Replaying the song ruthlessly, knowing every ahh and ooh of the song, dreaming of meeting them someday. Damn, those were the days.
I'm talking about music from about a decade ago. Compare that to the music now and I feel just sad. How the trends change!
The things we experience while growing up stay with us forever. They are the things we'll love or hate forever. I'm pretty sure kids today will say how amazing the music from 2015 was compared to 2025. Just like I'm saying how amazing the 2004 music was compared to 2014.

Can you be with yourself?

I wake up. I have things to do. Get ready. Work. Eat. Exercise. Watch TV. Chat. When we finally are by ourselves, we have our phones with us. Quickly, we escape into the gadget. Then after a while our batteries are drained. Yes, our's, along with the phone's. Lol. And it's time to sleep.
I wake up, again. You know what follows.
Have you ever tried spending time with yourself? Just being with yourself. Realizing and feeling the various sensations in your body. Acknowledging the thoughts that arise. Introspect a little may be? I've been giving myself some time lately. And let me tell you, it can be frightening to just be. No wonder, we escape into this and that.
You suddenly realize how receptive your body is to your mind. Tense thoughts, tense body. Relaxed thoughts, relaxed body.
Being with yourself reminds you of the pains and gains of the past, the longing for your desires in the future. You realize how very fragile and vulnerable you are. Not in a physical sense. But in a psychological sense.
But after being with me for sometime. After thinking, feeling, embracing, loving myself. I find that I have deepened the relationship, the most sacred relationship, between me and my body. I feel a sense of mattering and belonging. I feel inner peace.


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