Crush

How can one person have such an effect on another person? It is just ridiculous. It was like she looked at the world through a veil of...love...I guess. She told me she couldn't think straight. Her crush was there in her thoughts, always. I could see the effect this crush was having on her. She smiled like crazy. She could focus on nothing. She sang a lot. She trembled every time she was near her crush. She was extremely picky about what she wore, how her hair looked, if she was slim enough or curvy enough.
"The world was beautiful again. It's so wonderful to be in love. This feeling I'm feeling right now is irreplaceable", she said.
Funny enough though, she couldn't even talk to her crush! It was almost like she stayed clear of a few feet from her crush. How was anything ever going to happen I told her.
I was especially happy for her because she had been through so much in the past year and a half. She had had no love for a while now. It was nice seeing her in the smitten frenzy. But I was also afraid of what might happen when her heart broke. "Don't get your hopes up to high. You know things are never work out here", I wanted to tell her. But she knew that. Yet she was smitten. You really can't control a heart can you? It wants what it wants.
Love - can make you do crazy things.
Little did she know that it was not love, it was a 'crush'. And the feeling would go just as soon as it came. And then wonder, why it came in very the first place.

Vacations do not bore me!

All us medical students who embarked on the journey to pursue post-graduation were on a rough road for almost a year, if not more. It was a period of time when doing anything other than studying felt like a crime. At least to me, it did. Well anyway, after an insanely long time, that period of my life is now over. I am officially on vacation now.
What surprises me is how easily I fell into it! It is almost like that torturous period is a distant memory. Waking up late which was once a rare luxury, is now routine. But I realize how treasured this is. I wish everyone who gets it values it too. It's little things in life that we need to realize and be thankful for. What's the point of just existing and getting into routine after routine. As Stacie Orrico said, "there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high." God I love that song. *goes and plays it*
I don't why I got around to writing this spiritual shit. This is not what I intended to write about. Hehe.
What I wanted to say was - vacations do not bore me. I know a tonne of people who say, "I'm getting bored", "there's nothing to do", "i need to find something to do". It's crazy but I have never had this 'problem'. Am I weird to not have it?
I have SO many things I want to do, things I want to learn. I've have lists full of them. And I was just itching to do them. I don't have time, I have so many things to do in vacations.
In fact, the problem I face is that I don't want to over work myself because this is vacation and who knows when I'll be able sleep and relax again. It scares me a little that I'm different like this. If you're different like this too, tell me!
I think this boils down to my childhood. In school or even until early college, I wasn't 'allowed' to go out much. It's crazy how our upbringing defines us. So anyway, I relied on other stuff for entertainment, I was always looking for things to do back then. And now they've just become a part of me.

Dissing 'All India Bakchod' for the wrong reasons?

Ok, if you think I'm here to chastise the recent AIB (All India Bakchod) roast for its foul language and vulgar jokes, then you're wrong. I'm quite okay with it, in fact. It is entertaining. Period. I am here to express my sorrow at the unceasing degradation of the entertainment we are exposed to.  It is just sad that the world today needs such a shallow form of entertainment. Sad that people needed to be abused for the sake of entertainment.

The best word to describe this roast was awkward. People putting on faces of laughter when it was so clear that underneath they were all like, "Wtf man, shut up already." It was so fucking apparent that they were all fake laughing there.

Making fun of others to extremely inappropriate personal levels, using filthy words, oh and not to mention obscene gestures. All these things generate publicity and that's all that matters, right? But is not heart breaking?

I recently came across this knowledge that after spending our time on work, sleep and other routine activities, we barely have some 3-4 hours to ourselves. Precious time which can be used to develop our hobbies or learn new skills. Precious time to be with ourselves, talk to our families, meditate may be. Precious time to move closer to our dreams. But we choose to spend it watching TV. And now the entertainment industry is selling the cheapest kind it has. I hope we can agree that Indian TV today showcases too much shallowness. And this both saddens and scares me.
The youth is so fucked up thanks to all this. They don't even have the awareness that watching this shit is screwing them.

I hope reading this stirs something in you and keeps you from this using shows like these for pleasure.

PS. I had a headache midway through watching this and also I didn't get many of the jokes. And I also know I'm not the only one.

Watching the Republic Day Parade?

So tomorrow is India's 66th Republic Day. 66 years since the Constitution of India came into life. Cool, isn't it. I am a little ashamed to say that I have not even once watched the Republic Day Parade in the past 10 years. I've always been caught up with studies or something else. And I know I am not the only one. 

We just let our routine and daily stresses take over our lives. Never finding the time to think about our nation, unless there is a media hype. That is just the way we roll nowadays. No time for our country, no time for health, no time for family, no time for ourselves, just no time. 
Sad.
This time, try to make some time to enjoy the Republic Day holiday watching the parade with people that matter to you.
I know I'm going to. Plus for the first time in history, a US president (Barack Obama) is going to be chief guest at the parade, Prime minister Modi will be giving his speech, 'Naari Shakti' is the theme!

Some day I hope to watch it live. Until then, here is where you can watch it online (live streaming)-

Live Stream Republic Day Parade

Being Human

After having a fairly tumultuous 2014, I realized what a crazy adventure life can be. It got me thinking. There are so many beautiful living creatures on this mad planet. What makes humans so special? What is BEING HUMAN?

We can laugh, appreciate, love, be wise. We understand time. We have awareness of death. We have self consciousness, a sense of morality. We truly are unique beings. Each one of us special. After all, all of us beat the competition of millions to come into existence. I assume you know that only sperm fertilizes a female egg. Point being, YOU ARE SPECIAL. You kind of have a responsibility to live a wonderful, meaningful existence.

It is essential that we 'grow'. Every mistake you make, every emotion you feel, every experience you have, every struggle and challenge, makes you grow. That's how we fulfill the responsibility of being human. Through this blog I hope to contribute to that by sharing my story and I hoping to hear some of yours.

THE FIGHTER

They are all over the place aren't they. Those people who have their life 'set'. It seems like they have everything that you need, right?!!

And you're thinking, "Why the fuck am I not among them? I put in just as much hard work as they did. I have it in me. I can do it. And I tried so hard. Then why?! Why? Why? Why? Why did I not get 'the rank'?"

I am not here to bash the winners. I am here to get into the psyche of the, so called, 'loser'.
No, I won't call you a loser. You are a FIGHTER! Yes! A fighter!

So read this my 'fighter'-

Life is not fair. SHIT HAPPENS. Freaking deal with it! Don't sit there and cry like a baby.
You know what you want, right?

Then go after it!!!! Do NOT let anything stop you. You are unstoppable.
You may not have it now. But one day you will.
Believe it or not, the harder your journey, the stronger you will be. If you don't struggle in life, if you get it easy, if you give up right now -
then you will remain a pussy cat. You will never be a tiger. You will never get your dreams. You will never realize your potential.
So don't compromise. Don't give up. Get your act together. And go for what you want. Keep going.

Comment below (you can even comment as anonymous) what it is that you want. And share this with your fellows who need help.