Stimulation is not bad, i realize. It is...well...activites...things that make our day and hence our lives. And in between the stimuli lies the "being with my thoughts". And that isn't bad or good or anything either. It is just thinking. Multiple thoughts of all varieties will pop up, come and go, ebb and flow.
The thing is...just being with thoughts can be uncomfortable if you have been with prolonged stimulation. And it is an important part. Because it is kind of an assessment or realization of the stimuli. Both are important. None is complete without the other, i feel.
Balance.
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I come into my room after a 36 hour shift...and my hand reaches for my cell phone to turn on music. It is almost like i can't take the silence after all the happenings. But i stop myself and just lie for a while, instead. Then after sometime, i feel "turned down". It's like that. Getting worked up and then turning down.
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