Just some

Hmm...yesterday night...we went out...like literally. I drank some and smoked some...hookah. Not cigarettes. I do want to though, once.
I don't feel guilty about this. Not one bit. And that does not surprise me. My mindset is that this is the only time i will be able to do this. But the fact is, i don't even enjoy it. I don't find it relaxing. I do think that it lets me be free, cuts off my inhibitions. I think it is good if you are having a conversation or dancing, things just become more true.
Today has been kind of boring. I mean, no real work. Just some random shit all day. Did get some chores done. But that's it.
Looking forward to shopping tomorrow.
I met, didn't really meet, Valentin today. I thoroughly ignored him.